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Log : Day of Rest
I'm still trying to work out my protocol for the week. I'm starting with a loose guide and seeing what my body can take before I jot it down as a permanent part of schedule.
I am not taking borax or any of the gum turpentine protocols today. In fact, the only thing I need to worry about today is taking Lugol's iodine at 11:30am. \o/
Emotional support. That was the one thing I couldn't buy, and frankly, even if we could, I certainly couldn't afford it. So that's why I made a Dreamwidth account. I needed a place to vent, to cry, to encourage, but really I needed a place to unload the stress; because having candidiasis and being on a protocol, is without a doubt, stressful. Loved ones may sympathize, and they may even try to be helpful, but I felt that no one really understood, and ultimately, it's all too easy to wear out the welcome of a once friendly shoulder with good intentions. People are selfish beings. This is just our nature. They want to live out their lives, worry about their own joys. That's normal. That's expected, but while I'm undergoing the stress of trying to recover, my levels of understanding drop significantly. When we're miserable, it's harder to see the positive things in life. Because we are suffering, it's harder to be kind. Meanwhile, loved ones want to go to festivals, movies, do activities you can't really partake in because 1. You can't eat the food or 2. You're too busy running to the bathroom because of the protocol to really enjoy an event. It sucks. At least, this was my experience for the first few years.
However, it did get easier. I came to a point where the protocol was working so well that I no longer suffered the symptoms while on it. I increased my doses of iodine and could even tolerate other foods like blueberries, strawberries, sweet potatoes, tofu, miso and watermelon! Then I got off the protocol and symptoms came back. This is because I still wasn't rebalanced yet.
From my current die-off symptoms, I can tell I'm not starting from Day 1. I feel like I'm more into month 3-ish. I started with the gum turpentine right off the bat this time, so that's already a big leap. Alkalizing my body, blood, and cells is what I'm worried about. I couldn't handle some of the drinks in Bill's protocol before. =/
If anyone out there is following along, so far I've planned :
Sunday - rest from all protocols
Monday - gum turpentine + honey
Tuesday - castor oil + gum turpentine
Wednesday - borax water
Thursday - castor oil + gum turpentine
Friday - borax water
Saturday - castor oil + gum turpentine
(Hey, Dreamwidth, your color selections could use some love)
I am not taking borax or any of the gum turpentine protocols today. In fact, the only thing I need to worry about today is taking Lugol's iodine at 11:30am. \o/
I can tell I'm going to look forward to Sundays from now on. Taking the protocol and being on such a strict schedule is taxing. It's bad enough we have to suffer both the symptoms and the die-off, but to have to be so precise and rigid with the protocol, it's no wonder it put a strain on my relationships with people.
Emotional support. That was the one thing I couldn't buy, and frankly, even if we could, I certainly couldn't afford it. So that's why I made a Dreamwidth account. I needed a place to vent, to cry, to encourage, but really I needed a place to unload the stress; because having candidiasis and being on a protocol, is without a doubt, stressful. Loved ones may sympathize, and they may even try to be helpful, but I felt that no one really understood, and ultimately, it's all too easy to wear out the welcome of a once friendly shoulder with good intentions. People are selfish beings. This is just our nature. They want to live out their lives, worry about their own joys. That's normal. That's expected, but while I'm undergoing the stress of trying to recover, my levels of understanding drop significantly. When we're miserable, it's harder to see the positive things in life. Because we are suffering, it's harder to be kind. Meanwhile, loved ones want to go to festivals, movies, do activities you can't really partake in because 1. You can't eat the food or 2. You're too busy running to the bathroom because of the protocol to really enjoy an event. It sucks. At least, this was my experience for the first few years.
However, it did get easier. I came to a point where the protocol was working so well that I no longer suffered the symptoms while on it. I increased my doses of iodine and could even tolerate other foods like blueberries, strawberries, sweet potatoes, tofu, miso and watermelon! Then I got off the protocol and symptoms came back. This is because I still wasn't rebalanced yet.
From my current die-off symptoms, I can tell I'm not starting from Day 1. I feel like I'm more into month 3-ish. I started with the gum turpentine right off the bat this time, so that's already a big leap. Alkalizing my body, blood, and cells is what I'm worried about. I couldn't handle some of the drinks in Bill's protocol before. =/