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I think I had a bad day last week where I was hoping my parents would take an interest in finding out why I'm sick or at least what it does to me. I set up this blog for them, after all, hoping to answer some questions they may have. Nope. A friend. wants me to keep reaching out to them, but at the rate it stresses me, I think I'm better off not counting on their emotional support.

SO. I don't know whether or not I'll even keep this blog up now. We'll see what happens, I guess. The good news is that I'll write my thoughts now instead of keep up with that stupid template log. Actually, no. I know that log is helpful, so I should keep some incarnation of it up.


So, things I learned from my last mishap. Eat. Solid. Foods. I had one full day of soup and I was in so much pain afterward. I guess I was concerned if I was allergic to anything since I had been reading about food allergies and don't know if I have it. (I am not seeing a doctor.)

Radishes - strong anti-fungal. I can only eat 1 a day. Frankly, I've not even had 1 a week since that last horrible incident of die-off. It even sent me into painful bloat mode! (As did the soup day.)

New Problem! Tooth and Gum Issue!

It's Winter and the air is always dry. For the last few years since I've lived here, my teeth and gums would always ache in the winter. This year was no exception. However, this year I notice that my gum line near my bottom left molar has started to turn more black. 6 years ago, when I still lived in California, I went to a dentist who just said it was a stain and to not worry about it. (He's on 1800Dentist, by the way. Ripped off my mom too but that's another story.) I went to brush my teeth after having Alkalizing drink #2 (post after this one!) and noticed some blood. I checked and it didn't look like anything was bleeding, but when I spat, sure enough. I flossed again, especially around that dark "stained" area. My tooth looks fine from above, but that gum line looked like it had gotten darker and spread a little. I used a rubber pick around the area. Again, no pain, but we all know that when plaque is at work, it numbs the area so you can't feel it, little bastards. Anyway, I'm not sure if there's a natural remedy for this. I can't think straight to research or even comprehend anything but my protocol schedule, and even that sends me for a loop sometimes.

Note : I did have some jaw tenderness 2 weeks prior. That's when I bought a humidifier. Damned if the thing is working or not.
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Radishes are strong anti-fungals. I actually let a bag go over a month to see how long it would take to rot. It outlives everything organic in our fridges. It's truly remarkable.

Yesterday, I forgot just how strong the anti-fungal properties in radishes were, and  I got violently ill after eating 2 of them. The following might be a little graphic for some, so stop reading if you're that person.

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Friends, that violent episode was not a result of the candida, but rather a result of the anti-fungals KILLING some of the candida. This is called "Die off", "healing crisis" or  "Herxheimer reaction". Most of us call it "die off". When you kill candida, it can release over 70+ toxins in the body that can have a wave of varying results. This is why logging and monitoring everything is so important.

I found that there are many people who actually chase after die-off symptoms because they want to kill the wild candida. I'm not there yet, and I don't know if I want to be.

Also to note. I found a bruise on the back of my left, middle finger. Monitoring it to make sure it doesn't turn into a clot. Its a little smaller than a pencil eraser head, but still important.

Still haven't written back. My mother would call this laziness, but with candida, everything is so much effort. You really can't understand unless you go through it ; well maybe people who have experienced depression can understand. It's not laziness at all.

Finally, if I've not mentioned it earlier, I am approaching 2 months of treatment this coming Wednesday. I've already lost 40lbs. :( Not a healthy way to lose weight. I can even see the top few ribs of of my rib cage - which is what actually prompted me to weigh myself. I need to find healthy calories that can work on this diet. =/


Nov. 5th, 2015 10:41 pm
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I havent written. I know. Its the effort and the new schedule. I've switched to spreadsheets, have I mentioned that? I can't bring myself to log in the notebook anymore. I'm also on cycle. Fabulous. Throw more craziness at me. Anyway, I wanted to write about what's on my mind so I can get it out of my head and rest tonight. :

Everyone in my family has a trophy, except me. I'm the failure in the family. The only thing my name is written on is a small plaque I asked my mom to buy for me as a kid because 'hey my name is on it!'

I watched my hands as the water boiled for tea. They were a different color, mottled pale and in one are it looked a bit yellow. Then it slowly changed into mottled pink, with darker pink lines as if I had been pressing hard on an edge, except, I was holding my palms up all that time. My fingertips grew pale and almost a shade of grey. I had enough. I mixed up some extra virgin coconut oil with tea tree oil and applied it onto my hands. Candida was getting accustomed to the extra virgin coconut oil, I thought, so maybe adding the tea tree oil will throw it off. I know I can use oregano oil, but I'm trying to save as much of that as I can given how expensive it is. It's my secret weapon though, since it's the one thing candida can't adapt to. Slowly my hands started to look "normal" again. In this case, "normal" means a mottled pinky hue but with slight more evenness to it. I could tell my back was flaring up. I could feel the heat and itchy sting. It was a big patch. I checked the mirror, and I was right. It looked like something had also scratched me. That's the weird thing with this 'rash'. It heats up a broad blob kind of area and every so often I'll find lines through it, sometimes deep, sometimes thin. My boyfriend often asks if I scratch. I proved to him that I didn't when I asked him to check my back after hours of sitting next to each other at the PCs. Sure enough, it looked like I scratched it, but how could I have when I had been at the desk typing all that time? He started to believe me, I think.

If I can beat this thing. If I can re-balance my candida, and somehow through the grace of God, get my life in order - get it back; I'll be my own fucking trophy.


This is a personal journal. It is not intended as medical advice, as I am no medical professional. This is simply my journey, documented for curious friends and family.


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